Torn

i have been hated
and loved
questioned and trusted
i am dirty and spotless
i am brilliant
and mindless
i believe and
i doubt
i despise
and i love
i lust for wrong
bask in rightful glory
i fear
i run
i am driven and inspired
i am stuck in contentment
i cant believe where i have been
i dont know where i am going
there is a hole in my heart
i am filled to the brim
i am..........
walking
climbing
fighting
laying still
Torn