Sunday, March 29, 2009

voices....

so i had time to sit and pray this morning, sit in a quiet dark place and listen to some soft music and pray..........just to be still............and it was just a few minutes.............but i was totally relaxed and being very honest...............and you know what i heard...............voices, lots of them, and my mind couldnt stop thinking, it went in all different directions, each important but difficult to reign in and focus on what's truly important........................is it possible that i have not taken a time out in so long that i no longer have that ability to be still................by being so crazy busy and constantly on the go and on the edge of my seat have i trained my mind to never sit still.......................is this why i am so crazy all the time, all these voices, yet they all sound like mine??????? I think i have ADD...............What's real God..........help me find it............but can we start tomorrow? I'm exhausted :).................

1 comments:

SarahBeth said...

its so important to have that quiet time to pray or just reflect. I was sitting in my car yesterday after parking in the dark garage listening to some song and just thinking about how much life has changed in the past 2 years and how different it will be this time next year. I am so excited for the change but also sad that life is moving so quickly and I'm not living in every day. This is so off topic of your blog i feel like but the point is how relaxing it is sometimes, but also strange the silence that comes when we just sit and listen.. it makes me feel kinda alone but also not at the same time. maybe your thoughts needed that time to talk things out. are you journaling? it may help to clear your mind a bit so you can sit and listen better (sometimes it helps for me). Love you my sister.