(Singing) Ive got the power!!

So sunday i was all hopped up on coffee and my mind was thinking a million miles a minute, we talked about God's power. And over and over it was explained that we didnt truly believe in God's power, the same power that raised jesus from the dead is at our fingertips, not even at our fingertips, but inside our hands, feet and hearts. And if we really believed that Gods power was real and within us there is nothing we could not do with just faith the size of a mustard seed. And i kept thinking, i believe in that power.On this crazy journey, I have seen that power first hand..........i have seen it physically when the dead walked again, i have seen it as a small framed white woman made a huge footprint in the inner city, i have seen it through intercessory prayer and discernment of things i never would have known or seen without that power, i have seen demons (crazy as it may sound) i have felt the battles, i have seen miracles and mountains move, almost literally, it is so real, i have sat with my head on his lap and felt my hair being stroked.......................but at this point in my life, it is not the disbelief of the power of god or my faithlessness that i feel is the issue, its the fear. i'm scared of what may be behind that mountain if it moves. i'm terrified that my belief and faith will lead me to a place that i dont want to go, or that power may lead me to a place where i will fail miserably............................So i know that the power of God is more than i could ever imagine and why wouldnt i want to live in that power you ask? FEAR, that's it.

you might find this crazy, but i'm ok with this. i've been so many places emotionally and spiritually, ups and downs, bitter and angry, on top of the world and awful superspiritual, but now and here i am totally ok with my perspective and i'll tell you why....................because.............i am moving and thinking.................there is a lingering hope that wasnt there before, and it is well with my soul.

Whatever my lot, God has taught me to say, IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL. Remind me to enjoy the journey.